[Poetry] Distant Memory

Far from home, my finger on the trigger,
Eyes on the enemy lines, beyond the frontier,
My heart grows fonder for you.
Do you think of me at all?
Ever wonder where I am, where I might be?
Do you spare a moment of thought for me?
I've been toiling here far away, so without a clue.

In these moments of agony, my heart grows fonder for you;
Your heartbeats are so distant now, I feel worn and blue;
Thought I had it all, till you gave me that moment of adieu.

Hand in hand, in firm grasp, we let our guard down,
We strolled and fancied, caring nothing of any smirk or frown,
So engrossed in each other, your smile was bliss for my heart.
Do you cherish those moments at all?
Ever wonder how I might be or am I the only one with woe?
Do you spare a moment of thought for me?
Or am I like an erased memory of some sort?

In these moments of agony, my heart grows fonder for you;
Your heartbeats are so distant now, I feel worn and blue;
Thought I had it all, till you gave me that moment of adieu.

Don't know who to trust here, thought I could trust you,
I had faith in somebody once, now faith remains only in a few,
Dust on my face, end near, oh to see those crimson cheeks again.
That innocent smile and blush, do you still have them?
Do you still break so easily to be consoled by somebody?
Have you broken anyone else's heart since?
Do you still behave so unbecoming of gentlewomen?

In these moments of agony, my heart grows fonder for you;
Your heartbeats are so distant now, I feel worn and blue;
Thought I had it all, till you gave me that moment of adieu.

[Poetry] I Won't Succumb to You

Know how I am living my way?
Just my shadow, waking up in the middle of lonely nights?
I wish you'd please me, I wish you'd kiss me;
I can't explain what I felt for you
When I got your one touch or two;
I can't go back there now and don't need to anymore.
Because now I know that -

I am not the one,
That you were thinking of, that you were making out;
I knew that when your heart just closed its doors
To me.

I know I can't take it anymore;
I know I can't bear it without you anymore;
You said you'd never be severing our love,
You've been playing your games and now I have had enough!
I have done it once before, but -
This time I won't succumb, I'd walk away from you,
I won't succumb, I won't succumb at all, to you.

You have told me lies, teased me with half-truths;
You asked for one more chance and then deceived me;
There is no love at all in you anymore,
There is just no love in you anymore.
You'd never expected that I'd be moving on,
You've played your games baby but babes you are so wrong.
Because now I know that -

I am not the one,
That you were thinking of, that you were making out;
I knew that when your heart just closed its doors
To me

I know I can't take it anymore;
I know I can't bear it without you anymore;
You said you'd never be severing our love,
You've been playing your games and now I have had enough!
I have done it once before, but -
This time I won't succumb, I'd walk away from you,
I won't succumb, I won't succumb at all, to you.

I've kowtowed nuff, but no more kissing the ground you walk on, babes
Danced nuff to your tunes, but I am past them all now so don't call on me, babes
You say I shouldn't have counted on you, well I learned to do that the hard way
On me neither your eyes nor your words hold any more sway

You don't love me anymore, I know.
I have done it once before, but,
This time I won't succumb, I'd walk away from you

No, no, never, I won't succumb at all
I won't succumb, I won't succumb, to you!

[Poetry] No Loyalty in Love

O the flowers that you sent me,
Have grown nasty and dry;
Just like your sweet promise of togetherness,
Was nothing but a bitter lie.

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

Is this some kind of test you are making me go through?
Some kind of insipid exam to prove my love?
How could you promise to never leave me?
And then ditch me just after a fight?

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

If so was your plan why come to me?
Become my lover, stay for months?
Show me honey-sweet dreams?
Make my life a mess?

Could your nine-day friend ever love you?
As much as I did? Could he ever -
Appreciate you beyond your skin?
Never, never could he, never.

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

You told me - I was your perfect guy;
You told me you would marry no one else;
How then could you cut me off so coldly?
Is this the real worth of your promises?

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

All my sorrows - could they come from someone -
I loved from the bottom of my heart?
I never knew that you would - make dreams with me,
And crawl to the bed of someone else for fulfillment.

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

I used to be where your new friend sleeps now;
Prolly a change of sex would be good for me;
Then I could be cold and heartless,
Just like you now appear to be.

There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty in love;
There is no loyalty, no loyalty,
There is no loyalty in love.

Treat me if you want like the filthy gas;
That comes out of your ass;
Yet how can I ever forget you my love?
Discard dreams which used to be ours?

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[Poetry] Just Quit It, John Doe

Quit calling up to greet and thank people, John Doe
The last time you did it, they accused you of harassment
You really dont wanna get hurt again John Doe, do you?

Quit pointing out follies in other people, John Doe
The last time you did it, they accused you of being nosey
You really dont want that reward again John Doe, do you?

Quit giving directions to the misled, John Doe
The last time you did it, they said 'mind your own business'
You really dont want that response again John Doe, do you?

Being selfish is good, being selectively blind, better
Choose flowers for yourself, leave the thorns for others
You never got love or respect John Doe, why then, give any?

[Poetry] LONELINESS My Friend

All my life locked in my lonely cocoon;
Lonely in cafes, lonely in bars, lonely at home;
Lonely on sidewalks, lonely with buddies;
Loneliness is now my only close friend.

Had parents who acted as if I don’t exist;
Met women who treated me as The Invisible;
Had clients who thought I am dispensable;
Loneliness has been loyal and indulgent to me.

Teachers said I am no good, coaches gave destiny talk;
Some told me not to accept loneliness, I deserve more;
Perhaps that is why I have nobody and nothing;
And those who deserve nothing have found everything.

Met souls who were unhappy being with people;
Seen those who always have a partner riding the pillion;
Talked with peeps who had partners but now happily single;
Learned that you can never get away from loneliness.

Perhaps I am made to be The Lonely Doe;
Born to exemplify the pinnacle of loneliness;
Happiness and sadness are both but transient;
Loneliness is my only constant, omniscient friend.

[Poetry] The Masquerade

Are we really happy here
Playing these coy games we play?
Why both of us so afraid of coming out
And confessing the passion to each other?

Every time we met we tried our best
But the words got stuck in our throats;
We have been wearing masks, hiding emotions;
And we have become stuck inside the masquerade.

Thoughts of dying vanish into thin air;
Every time I see your eyes on Insta.
We both have so many happy selfies there;
But are we really happy with our lonely selves?

Every time we met we tried our best
But the words got stuck in our throats;
We have been wearing masks, hiding emotions;
And we have become trapped inside the masquerade.

I have tried to understand the real REASON why
We carry on playing these stupid games we play;
But then every time I tried to be closer to you,
You moved two steps back, staying within the masquerade.

Every time we met we tried our best
But the words got stuck in our throats;
We have been wearing masks, hiding emotions;
And now we won’t be able to escape this masquerade.

Been searching high and low, left and right
But not finding any understanding anywhere;
One day I might put my head on your shoulders,
And sleep, to never wake up again.

[Poetry] Keep Walking

Never stop, just keep walking;
For life is short and you gotta go long.
Take a pause for a breath and a laugh;
But then, just continue walking.

If you face a crowd, pierce through it;
Crowds are made of mud and stones -
Who are slaves of their own limitations;
Don’t get trapped within them, just keep walking.

If a loved one comes across, shake hands, hug them;
But never stop for anybody, keep walking.
For life is short and you gotta go long;
Think of how far you have come and keep walking.

If your destination ain’t visible now, it will be soon;
There is no means and ends of seas and oceans;
But the Diligent has used them to discover the world;
You will discover yourself too, if you just keep walking.

[Poetry] One Moment of Peace

Just One Moment of Peace is All I Want;
Even if it is the last moment of life;
Even if it is all over after that;
Just One Moment of Peace is All I Want.

How easily we hide our feelings from others;
But can we ever hide ourselves from us?
How easily we pretend and fool the world;
But can we ever fool ourselves?

Just One Moment of Peace is All I Want;
Been shedding tears for decades now;
But hardly has a drop descended from heaven;
Just One Moment of Peace is All I Want.

It is not that only I am heartbroken;
It is not that only I am filled with anguish;
All around I see those wanting to end the chaos within;
They all want: Just One Moment of Peace.

Once we subject our corpse to the earth or fire;
What else is there left of us?
I am not worried about death or life thereafter;
Just One Moment of Peace is All I Want.

[Poetry] The Embers of Past

How can you move forward
If you keep the embers of past fanned?
Forgetting the past enables man to sow -
A FRESH NEW seed with his hand.
You cannot undo what you have done;
You cannot turn back clock of time;
Is it not then sensible to completely douse
The embers you've inherited from past?

If you could turn back the clock of time;
Revisit the past and done things different;
If you won't have made the mistakes you did;
Would the outcome be different?
If not, what do you get out of scalding your palm
With the hot embers of past?
If yes, what is it that stops you
From doing things DIFFERENTLY now?

Choosing and sowing mediocre seeds;
Is what many a novice farmer does;
What you did was not anything novel;
Heartbreak was your inevitable destiny.
Now you have this beautiful new green sapling,
From a BETTER seed growing up under your care;
Are you sure stirring up those embers time and again
Won't burn this sapling down?

Douse the embers of past to see the present;
That's about the only way to move ahead.
You can use your palms
To turn that tiny sapling into a rich fruit bearing tree;
But you can't - if your palm is wounded by embers of past.
Making foolish mistakes in the past was not your fault;-
But using those mistakes
As excuses to ruin the present will surely be!

[Poetry] The Trees Fell and I Did Nothing

Up in the hilly resort,
I was traveling in an Uber.
We were blocked halfway through the journey;
We sat and watched… and did nothing.

The trees fell, one, two three;
I watched in dismay, as they were laughing and yelling;
I wanted to yell too, to stop them;
But then I saw axes in their hands…and did nothing.

We waited for half an hour straight,
Until the driver finally got out.
I thought he was going to stop them,
But he got out only to ask them to clear out…and nothing.

They cut the three trees into halves, put them on to big trucks;
It was not for business but for a huge Indian festival, they said;
The police station was not too far away but they did nothing;
I turned blind eye too; they were eight… could we do anything?